New Beginnings

After my husband and my mother died, I really didn't know what to do with my life. I could have just sat in my nightgown and stared at the four walls forever. I felt like my life was over. But my best friend for the past 54 years, ut oh I'm telling my age, gave me a daily devotional book entitled "New Beginnings." I thought at first, oh great, just what I need another daily devotional book. I finally opened this book, the introduction began to read, "As you graduate to the next phase of life, you've got decisions to make...lots of them." It talked about I was about to embark upon my next grand adventure.

I have to admit that I could not imagine that my life would start a new "grand" adventure without my husband, especially. I could tell him anything--if I dreaded something, if I didn't know how to handle a situation--he would always put a funny twist on it and I would laugh and go on. Now, my only outlet is my new puppy, Chloe, and she listens, but I just don't get any feedback except her cuddling next to me and licking my arm.

People have told me it would take time. I thought I was prepared. You're never prepared. My husband even had everything fixed or replaced at her home so I would be ok. Guess what, it seemed like everything started messing up--three toilets and something wrong with each one of them. Well, my new handyman is my cousin next door, Leon. Well, I do try to fix things myself and then I have to give up. I wish I had paid more attention when Charles told me how to fix something. Oh well, Leon, I need HELP! He's right over. There are 5 widows at the end of our street. I'm the youngest and Leon is helping all of us. I don't know what we will all do if something happens to Leon. I guess we'll be at Home Depot or Lowes taking some of those classes.

Each day I wake up, it is a new day and I can truthfully say that I am on the way to being happy again and looking forward to new things and new challenges. Now, I didn't say that I can get into any of my husband's clothes, tools, or his other personal effects. In time, I will be able to do that also.

If you are someone who has lost someone you love, there is hope. Give yourself time. Give yourself time to mourn. My friend of 54 years called and shared a verse with me, "Blessed are they that mourn, for they shall be comforted."

Yes, I am having fun again. Thank you Charles for my convertible with xm radio. If you see a white haired lady in a white convertible with oldies playing very loudly speeding down the freeway, watch out, that's probably me!